Walking Wounded

"Love is not a victory march; it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah..." - Hallelujah, Rufus Wainwright

Let that thought sink in for a second.

For a few Christians such as myself, we always fight the battle from the front, where the people we love are perfectly behind us, and witness the celebrations and the cheer from behind, where we can always oversee everything and ensure that the people we love, nurture, teach and protect can express themselves without facing the horrible reality of combat.

Many Christians are a good bunch - they love each other genuinely, and they love other people. Sure, they may be a few exceptions (no-one is perfect; as long as we're in the flesh, we will always have to combat sin). They do their best to live out their newly-found Christian lives, expressing their love of Christ to the world in a small flickering flame to a giant bonfire that is found in churches and larger congregations.

These Christians are the regular ones. They're comparable to sheep, since they cannot be expected to be able to defend their spiritual faith against a concentrated attack by a skilled enemy combatant, or their physical selves against an assailant.

And, being a person who can somewhat see with physical and spiritual eyes, I will be discussing the spiritual side of the fight.

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The Devil is a crafty fellow.
He's also a fairly smart one - he's a master tactician.

He doesn't attack the strong and entrenched... directly.
Instead, he targets the weak ones, like a lion target its prey.
"Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings." -- 1 Peter 5:8-9

As much as 1 Peter warns us about the method of targeting, many saints and followers of Christ have not solidified their faith.
This can happen to anyone.

How so?
The Devil attacks the strong chain by corroding the weakest link.

That weak link may be the friend of someone who invited them.
It may be the emotionally weak sister who is struggling to attain that stability.
Maybe it's a brother whose friends have slowly displaced his footing, and have caused him to fall.

In either case, a successful attack will create a 'walking wounded' Christian - a Christian who feels as if their faith is empty.
This can happen to anyone.

The walking wounded lives a life in which they still love God, but the burden they carry is too great.
It's a heavy burden, comparable to actually being injured - as the physical body cannot perform optimally under injury, neither can the spiritual body.
To a person who can see such a deteriorated state, it's a bit devastating to see someone fall from their perch, and break their legs upon landing.
Regardless of a person's strength, if the weakest link in the chain breaks, then the chain will fall apart.
This is why the walking wounded as such great tools in Satan's arsenal: by attacking the weakest person in the group, he can simultaneously attack and weaken everyone, making people more vulnerable to sin.

However, there is a cure!
Praise the Lord that there is a cure.

"Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” -- Matthew 11:29-30

The Lord is a great bearer of heavy stuff.
He bore our sins (which is something in itself, considering you may be sinning right now, and we all will continue to do so for the rest of our time on this earth), so why won't people allow Him to bear their infirmities?

Well, this verse is one of those many things that is more easier said than done.
Us human beings love vanity and value our pride more than anything: we attempt all things to solve our own problems without involving anyone else, because any external assistance would damage our rather fragile sense of pride and dignity.
Therefore, many people know they have a problem; it's just that they don't really want to bring it to the Lord, because they think they can solve it on their own.

The Lord is a marvelous doctor.
For those of us who can, our job is as soldiers and as medics.
Our job as soldiers is to protect the weaker ones under us from Satan's attacks through fellowship and prayer.
Our job as medics is to take care of the wounded, and bring them back to God, where He can allow the healing to begin.

"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective." -- James 5:16

"My brothers and sisters, if one of you should wander from the truth and someone should bring that person back, remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of their way will save them from death and cover over a multitude of sins." -- James 5:19-20

-A. L. Balatayo

Child Soldiers and Christians

It's been a while since I last wrote, so forgive me for the hiatus.

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As of yet, many people portray the Christian faith in a light that corresponds to peace, love, harmony, all the good things that make good people go round and that make life worth living.

That is, until you meet the ugly, radical side of things.

Like Islam (but in far smaller numbers, and equally far less strength) certain Christian factions out there have seem to begun what appears to be a cultural war against today's post-modern America (and the Western world). From groups such as the church in the movie Jesus Camp, to the Westboro Baptist Church, it appears that Christians today are seemingly arming up against society, to 'take it back' for Christ.

As much as I admire their fire, it's totally wrong.
Wrong, wrong, wrong.
(and in some cases, morally disturbing)

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - 1 Corinthians 13:13

Faith? Yes - we can all see that they strongly "believe" God.
(I placed quotations, which will be explained at the bottom)
Hope? Yes - they have a hope and a vision, to reform and fight back against the post-modernistic American society.

But, where is the love?

Is it love to tell children that God hates us all and that they must be the fighters to "reclaim" America for the Lord?
Is it love to tell the international community that God hates them and that He enjoys killing serving members of our nations' armed forces?

These so-called Christian groups have forgotten about the 'love' aspect of being a Christian.
It's not all about ourselves, and it's not about trying to ram stuff down other people's theological throats and forcing them to accept.
God gave us free will, and He also gave us a heart, to take care of each other and to love each other.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these." - Mark 12:30-31

So, that doesn't meant teaching our kids some politics and about how the Left is destroying liberty as we know it (which is partially true, but common-sense people know when to keep their faith and their political view separated), and it doesn't meant stomping on a national flag and chanting 'God Hates Fags' or some other hate that furthers the Devil's propaganda.

It means reaching out into the community, and being the Lord's hands.
Work at a soup kitchen.
Volunteer at a soccer game or something.
Provide food to the poor.
Preach the Gospel, and rescue the people who want it and need it.

Maybe the world of organized religious doctrines has stopped listening to the love part of the Christian faith, and has acted on their own accord.
Only the Lord knows, and only He knows what will come of this...

-Aimann L. Balatayo

The Promise

I will always be the person people can look to.
I will always be striving for the top of my tier, if not beyond.
I will never allow myself or another brother or sister to slip in our standard.
I will never fall victim to the universal lies that perpetuate this society.
I will always uphold the truth, and strike down any and all lies.
I will never leave a brother or sister behind.

I will stand beside them, to be a guiding light and a friend.
I will stand in front of them, as to lead them through this life.
I will stand behind them, as to support their steps and to catch them if they fall behind.

I will provide them with whatever is in my power.
I will wipe the tears from their eyes.
I will catch their tears in my hand.
I will ensure that those tears are not wasted when I leave for my own battles.

That is my promise.

A. L. Balatayo

Shooting stars? NAH. I got my own wings...

Today was good.

Did my first spin in a LONG TIME today.
Went up in the aircraft, tried pulling a spin entry, failed.
So, my instructor demonstrated a spin entry, and the aircraft went right into a full spin.
We did a revolution or so before I was instructed to begin the recovery.

Maybe if I can get pictures of myself in other planes, then I'll post them.

(8) "I ask why, but in my mind I find, I can't rely on myself..." (8)

Yesterday, I saw this skit at school talking about homosexuality.
Homophobia, to be more exact.

As a Christian, I totally disagree with the aspect of homosexuality.
However, I am not against the person - only the notion.
But that certain topic, I will cover on a later posting.

BUT, anyways...

The actual skit (it was a presentation by a senior drama class) was, in all honesty, very good.
It had the emotional appeal that was necessary to reinforce the point that homophobia (a misnomer, in my opinion) is wrong, and that people should all be people.
Then the actors all asked for the audience's opinion.

Oh my, the next few minutes were absolutely disgraceful.
If anything stands against the drive for equal rights for the LGBT community, it would have to be how these students conducted themselves.

They looked like they 'encouraged' open discussion and opinion.
WRONG.
When someone made an anti-homosexual comment (and not even offensive, to give it a bit of leverage), they all jumped.
Mob-style tactics, using a number of faces against an individual or group of individuals.
It was plain wrong.

The main character of the play (who was, in real life, an open homosexual) was all very quiet through this (or, at least, from my viewpoint).
That will go with him, on my part.

Personally, I don't mind the guy.
I could consider him my friend, I would go out with him for coffee on any occasion.
However, the people who were supporting him (and mind this, they were all straight), were overly fanatical in protecting their homosexual friend, that they resorted to ganging up and attempting to 'gag' anyone whose viewpoint differed from what they wanted.

What really bothered me more, was that the play held a strong anti-Christian stigma.
It maybe just be my feelings, but the way that the Bible and other aspects of Christianity were covered (or deformed and twisted to fit either party) and the way the actors berated people of the Christian faith, really bothered me, and it still does, up to the moment of this writing.
And I know a few of the actors are Christian - they should have conducted themselves better than that of their non-Christian friends.

What looked like helping to encourage active free rights for all, ended up becoming more of a propaganda campaign, actively attempting to suppress any deviant point of view that would threaten their point of view.
And the fact that teachers and administration stood there, not doing anything to attempt to control the discussion (except for the one drama teacher who controlled her students), really worries me.
This might be the opening for an actively anti-Christian, if not outright anti-religious, attitude, and eventual behavior, in the community.

However, to end on a lighter note, I believe these 2 verses should stand for both parties of the discussion.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these." - Mark 12:30-31

"Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgment!" - James 2:12-13

-Aimann L. Balatayo

p.s.: The subject line is from the song "By Myself" by Linkin Park.

"Rain, rain, go away..."

Saturday morning.
Not flying, due to weather.

Hopefully it clears up soon.
Or at least clears up long enough to permit some flying.

We can hope, can't we?...

(8) "... the stories they told you still run through your veins..." (8)

Back to anger mode.
But this time, something much more personal.

My sister, something is bothering her.
I don't know what it is, but I just know.
And it's not just an ethereal something - it's people.

I know I constitute some of the problem.
But that's something that I'm slowly changing about myself.

It's other people.
And, following my own basic instincts, want to protect her.
This time, I'm not powerless like before - this time around, I know what's spinning, I know what's in the air, and I know the situation a bit more thoroughly.

But, at the same time, I don't know what to do...
Lord, give me an answer...

-Aimann L. Balatayo
Sadman.Actual

p.s.: The subject line is from 'Cries in Vain' by Bullet for my Valentine.

p.s.s.: I'm slowly approaching controlled tipping point.